My good friend and bride to be Amanda called me last week after reading my blog and told me that if I didn't think the J Crew dress would work that we would just look somewhere else. I looked online at their size charts and compared my measurements. From the measurements I knew it was going to be a tight fit but not out of the question.
We decided it was worth ordering a couple of them to give it a try. I was surprised that everything I saw said that a strapless style would be the most flattering for my body type. This sounded promising though since the one Amanda liked the best was strapless.
Amanda called me today to tell me that 2 of the 3 dresses that we ordered were in. I must admit I was very nervous going to try the dresses on. I'm just not a size 16 right now. I knew that going into this but I also was hopeful because I have heard that J Crew dresses can run big. The two dresses were too small but not ridiculously so. They weren't close enough though to order knowing I'm loosing weight. The biggest bummer is that the strapless one (the one I had been most hopeful for) is on back order until May. The wedding is in June so that will not work.
I just feel awful that I'm causing problems. Amanda kept telling me over and over to not feel bad and that she didn't care. I am so grateful that my friend is not a bridezilla!
I am disappointed though. I'm disappointed that I left myself get to this point. I am embarrassed that I can't just order a dress from any store. I am mad at myself but I'm also mad at J Crew. Why don't they go to a size 18 like other stores? Most places go to size 18!
Feeling bad for myself though is not going to get me anywhere. All I can do is work to make changes and to become healthier and a smaller size. And speaking of changes I am excited that as of yesterday I have finished my first week of the Couch to 5k program. I am nervous of the running ramping up in the weeks to come but I am also really excited. Running a 5k is something I have wanted to do for a long time. I am not really sure why I have wanted to because I hate running. I think because I hate it and have always feared it is exactly the reason why I want to do it. I want to conquer running. Also you can run anywhere. It's an easy thing to do and by easy I mean you don't need a gym membership or fancy equipment to do it.
I am alternating using the Wii Active Sports workouts and running as my exercise. You would think that the Wii is just a video game and couldn't be that much of a workout right? Wrong! The exercises are hard and leave me sore the next day. It's a good sore though. A sore that lets me know I accomplished something.
I have been blabbering and going on while I was waiting for the boyfriend to get home from work so we can watch the special 1 hour of The Office. And he's finally here so it's time to find out if Jam is having a boy or girl!
Special Note to the bride to be---Amanda when and if you read this you should not feel bad at all! I know you are so concerned about all of us being happy. You did not make me feel bad in anyway. I can't wait to be your bridesmaid!