I'll start with giving you some background. I have never been a petite girl. I would say in high school I was an average healthy weight. Of course at that time I thought I was overweight and now I would die to go back to my size 8 jeans. I started to gain weight my sophomore year of college and kept gradually putting on weight.
The summer of 2008 when I was living in Boston I reached my heaviest weight and it was a breaking point for me. In September of 2008 I joined Weight Watchers. I was determined to stick to the point system, log everything I ate, and work out religiously. From September 2008 to March 2009 I lost 38lbs! I was psyched but I also gradually started to become a slacker. I continued to work out like crazy but on the eating end I was not doing so well anymore.
In May I moved home to NC and things started to go downhill. I had a car now and picking up fast food was very convenient and tempting. On top of that I didn't have my neighborhood YMCA anymore. I had been a part of boot camp type classes, made friends, and a support system. So from May until now I gained back 20lbs. I'm still 18lbs down from my heaviest but that's not good enough.
Last night I had my good friend Amanda and her fiance Gene over for dinner. During dinner Amanda asked me to be her bridesmaid. I was thrilled and so excited to be a part of her special day. Also I knew this could be the motivation and kick in the butt I needed to get back on track. This morning I looked at a J Crew bridesmaid dress that Amanda was thinking of using and I realized the biggest size they have is a 16. Now a 16 for me would be pushing it, it would be too tight, and not be flattering at all. How embarrassing for me! I am determined that I will look hot in my size 16 bridesmaid dress on June 19th. Amanda's wedding on June 19th will not be the end but a starting point for me to obtain my goal weight.